Friday, April 21, 2017

To See With God's Eyes


I am so thankful to live in such a beautiful part of our country.
There's something about these mountains! They are so wild and powerful and strong. They surround me and make me feel safe and calm. They give me a sense of steadiness and security, almost as though the Creator of them is holding me in a massive hug. 
To me they are evidence of God's power and creativity. 

As I write this, I am looking out my window at a view that never ceases to take my breath away. I can be going about my day, with my mind on a thousand things, and yet when I look up and see these mountains I am filled with awe.
To know that the same God who created them, also created me! It stirs something inside me, a desire to worship God, to pour out love and praise to Him.

Two summers ago, there were some massive forest fires here in BC. They weren't right close to us, but the wind carried the smoke into our valley. 
For days, the smoke was so thick that it hid the mountains! I remember walking by the lake and seeing nothing in front of me but a foggy grey emptiness. My eyes would strain as i stared into the direction where I knew my beautiful mountains were, but no matter how hard I looked those mountains remained hidden. 

One day I was in town sitting by the lake and a group of tourists walked by. They had no idea that just beyond the smoke was a view that would take their breath away! Hidden behind the smoke was a lake and mountains, the kind that you see pictures of  in magazine articles telling you about the top 10 places you must go visit! 
And here these people were walking right past without a second glance! 
But I knew what was behind this curtain of grey! These mountains were etched in my mind's eyes.

I found a picture on my phone that I had taken only a couple of days before, when the smoke was just beginning to cast a hint of a haze over our area. I decided to take another picture of how things looked now on this day. Such a difference! 
Somewhere out there were majestic mountains framing a beautiful clear lake, and I could still thank God for them because I knew it was only a matter of time before the smoke would clear away!

For some reason this experience has got me thinking about the people around me: The ones in my life that just cross my path each day, the people I know and love, and also the people that I find difficult to deal with, or that I wish I could sometimes avoid. 
I began to wonder if maybe they had beauty and treasures inside of them that I just couldn't see. That maybe their hurts, insecurities, or the walls that they had put up, were hiding the true them.  

And so I started to pray and ask God to give me a glimpse of what He sees. He is able to look past our mess and see into our hearts. He begins to work in people from the inside out. 
Where we see anger and harshness in a person, He looks with compassion and sees the hurts and struggles that have led them to act this way. 
Where we see arrogance, He looks deep inside and sees insecurity. 
Where we look at someone and see coldness or bitterness, He looks with eyes that go past that and sees a broken heart and and the fear of not being loved. 

I need God to give me his eyes to see people for who they truly are, to not judge based on what I'm seeing at that moment, but to look deeper, and see that there really is treasures and gifts inside each one of us. 
God wants to love us all, He wants to heal the brokenness, the fears, the addictions, the wounds that we have deep inside, the things that sometimes try to cover up who He created us to be. 
My prayer is that God would give us eyes to see people the way that He does.

I love songs that put words to my prayers, and this song does just that!

Give my your eyes- Brandon Heath
Looked down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city of lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touch down on the cold black-top
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breathe in the familiar shock of confusion and chaos
All those people going somewhere, why have I never cared
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see,
Everything that I keep missing,
Give your love for humanity.
Give me your arms for the broken-hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach.
Give me Your heart for the ones forgotten.
Give me Your eyes so I can see.
Step out on the busy street.
See a girl and our eyes meet.
Does her best to smile at me.
To hide what's underneath.
There's a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie.
Too ashamed to tell his wife he's out of work, he's buyin time.
All those people going somewhere, why have I never cared.
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see,
Everything that I keep missing,
Give your love for humanity.
Give me your arms for the broken-hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach.
Give me Your heart for the ones forgotten.
Give me Your eyes so I can see.
I've been there a million times
A couple million lives
Just moving past me by, I swear I never thought that I was wrong
But I wanna second glance so give me a second chance
To see the way you've seen the people all along
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken-hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me Your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me Your eyes so I can see





Friday, April 7, 2017

I'd Be Lost Without You

I just spent the past few hours working on a blog post. 
I had done a final read over, made a few changes and then tried to post it. 
But suddenly more than half of what I had worked so hard on was GONE!! What?!?! 
Ok, don't panic, just go back it's got to be somewhere...

They say that you need to be careful of what you put on the internet because once it's out there, it's always out there! Except for my Blog post I guess! That thing has been forever lost!

Now the panic starts to set in...
This isn't fair...I spent so much time pouring my heart into this post...I was happy with it...

God had taught me something through a difficult day that I'd had this week, and I thought it would be the perfect thing to write about on this blog. 
For the past few hours, I had been putting these thoughts into words.  Going over each sentence and cutting and pasting until it sounded just right.
And now it is gone. 
I went back, I went forward, I checked to see if I'd posted it as something else. But it was lost.

I felt suddenly empty. God why? Tears came. 
I had spent so much time on this. 

God had used that hard day this week to show me just how much He loves me. I had just spent hours with him, writing about this, and standing amazed at how he can use us even when we feel weak; physically, mentally, spiritually, or all of the above. If we let him. 

And now my work was gone. He had known exactly what would happen; that I would lose my writing today. 

I wanted to quit. 
I was angry, hurt, and the lies came and told me that I really didn't have anything to offer anyways. 

I sat here for a minute or two or maybe more.
 I cried out to God. I knew he could help me figure out how to get my post back. But nothing I tried worked!
I knew there was no way to start over and rewrite all, and somehow I felt like I wasn't supposed to. I felt like God wanted me to hand my words and even my disappointment over to Him, and let him help turn it into something new. 

And so here I am, realizing that there is beauty and lessons to be learned even when things don't go the way I feel they should. 

The words that I had carefully chosen and written might be gone, but the Truth is still there. The things God had taught me, His Truth that had poured into my soul is still there. A lost blog post can't take that from me!
His love is the same no matter what. His grace is bigger than my doubts, fears, emotions, and losses.

God still loves me. And this realization, in the midst of disappointment, is worth so much more than a lost blog post! I would trade everything just to know Him more, to feel his comfort, and his Love. 

There's a song that I've been listening to over and over today. It puts the words to what is in my heart. Especially at the end of the song, when it says: "I'd be lost without you. But now I'm found singing your praise"

Please take a few minutes to listen to this song (at the bottom of this post)
 I pray that it speaks to you :)

Scandal Of Grace (I'd be lost)- Hillsong United

Grace, what have You done?
Murdered for me on that cross
Accused in absence of wrong
My sin washed away in Your blood
Too much to make sense of it all
I know that Your love breaks my fall
The scandal of grace, You died in my place
So my soul will live

Oh to be like You
Give all I have just to know You
Jesus, there's no one besides You
Forever the hope in my heart
Oh

Death, where is your sting?
Your power is as dead as my sin
The cross has taught me to live
And mercy, my heart now to sing
The day and its trouble shall come
I know that Your strength is enough
The scandal of grace, You died in my place
So my soul will live

Oh to be like You

Give all I have just to know You
Jesus, there's no one besides You
Forever the hope in my heart

And it's all, because of You, Jesus
It's all, because of You, Jesus
It's all, because of Your love that my soul will live

Oh to be like You
Give all I have just to know You
Jesus, there's no one besides You
Forever the hope in my heart

I'd be lost
I'd be lost
I'd be lost without you
But now I'm found singing Your praise
I'd be lost
I'd be lost
I'd be lost without you
Jesus